2024, wow...

So... I'm going to try to keep it short and simple this time around.

It has been years since i was officially active. I actually mentioned on Twitter, (which is apparently "X" now.. oooookaaayyyyy o.O) that i was retiring from music, and for a while i did. Reason for this, regardless of my love for music, was depression. No laughing matter this one kids.

Short backstory: I moved from small town, to capital area Espoo, right next to Helsinki in 2020, for a relationship and a new job as Security System Installer, i got because i wanted to get closer (than 300km), so we could build the relationship, with my ex... Yeah Ex. As it happened, soon after moving and starting new life in new place, much different from anything before, it broke off. So not gonna go into details about why, who cares. Just not her, or my fault per se, we did not match that well in the end, i was still struggling to adapt and she pulled too far away and started ghosting as a very introvert person as well, as am i.

All alone again, but now in big city (especially compared to small towns i had lived all of my previous life). I was sad, but i hanged on, kept it together mostly. I searched for new partner while learning my new job. Focused on life. And that took a while.

Ultimately I started chatting with a nice girl. Soon we met, then met again. And again, and again. Then we were in a relationship. Life was starting to get on track again and the new "alien" vibe of city life started to become normal everyday life.

Then she actually temporarily moved to my rental place, as her crib in Helsinki was under pipe maintenance/renewal. And after it had finished to the point of being able to move back, i moved with her out of the rental to her place.

And here I have been over a year now. Seems all is going well and i have gotten my shit together at long last. Basically for the first time in my life

Yet now... even though I have progressed on my job, from "beginner" to a professional, with focus on camera surveillance systems, but also certain amount other fields such as networks, and even small amount of other alarm systems and access control (for doors)... I have actually grown bored of my job. Feels like an endless cycle of getting up early all grumpy, dragging myself to various locations, just bearing through the day and waiting to get home, only to be tired and out of time to do much useful once home.

Even though i have better situation than ever before, I still have improving to do, to be completely happy.

You know what they say: 'Do what you love for living, and you never work for a day.' Well of course.. I love music. But it is difficult field to have as an occupation so to say. Usually musicians who earn from it do gigs, I have barely published my music online.. self-published even.

But yeah, I have actually started already to produce a bit more. Maybe this time i'll attempt to get my production to a record label, instead of just adding it to youtube and hoping something unknown. Not sure can I publish it to my own channel regardless of trying to show it for labels, need to research on that.

And yeah, as music is not really something I can just all of a sudden dive head first into, i will also try to move myself to better fields in the firm I work for, like focus on network and digital side of things instead of being only physical installer who occasionally gets to do configurations of systems i have installed. Or there is always finding another company to work for if it gets to that. A lot of unknowns still.

There is also dream of being just that rich, that i could invest and get some steady income from that, and then focus on music more freely, so it would not be forced in anyway, to make living out of. So regardless of the odds , i do some Lottery, Euro Jackpot, small prices to pay, to have that minimal chance of winning a big sum, and be able to live life of dreams.

So yeah i have a lot going on in personal life too, build a camper van from old-ish Ford Transit, been to Norway for example with it already with my girlfriend. Then just gaming often to relax.

But now still i am producing every now and then, because i get these ideas i am itching to compose and produce, i have such amount of producing hours behind me, it is literally part of me, as is love for music.. When i listen to music while at work i can see myself planning track of my own too since i have my own unique taste in music that is not often satisfied by listening others pieces only, and it is so much fun. Bought used laptop from my firm to be able to produce with, yet it has gen10 Intel i7 with only 4 cores, 8 threads and clocks of 2Ghz to 4Ghz turbo.. not enough in the end for my needs but I can do stuff with it. You may expect some new stuff coming from me, fine tuning a lot more than ever so it would sound great. Starting with a single, a project called 'City', Electronic House, with a bit of tropical and melodic and EDM style, yet with also orchestral style.

But indeed I shall research can I self-publish and attempt to get it to a label at the same time, or do i need to hold out on self-publishing until and if I am turned down by labels on that one.

Wow, the update got longer than i expected, was supposed to just summarize things. And this is summarizing, as years of life HAVE A LOT of happenings in them.