Good and Bad

I have been fascinated about this actually. Some time ago i announced at my old artist name, i will write about this from my perspective as it might have been sometimes visually perceivable with some picture headers etc (the legendary ball logo which cuts in half as sort of "water drop" shapes by rather opposite colors but which also have the opposite color as "eyes" in the center of the water-drop shape thing, you should know what i mean), but did not write about it precisely. Also many old blog posts and tweets have lead to this topic.

You might or might not know the really old saying of Yin and Yang. But as it might be "strictly" meant as men were somehow yang and women yin, i don't agree with that precise saying, if it is as such even, not sure. But i personally really like the meaning of the logo and the basic concept of it. how there is light in dark and dark in light.

I actually have been watching a show called 'One Upon a Time' at Netflix recently, which is a modern "darker" twist to many of common fairy-tales (not only Disney, but still focused on many of them) made for children usually, and which also likes to show quite nicely with all its 6 seasons i just finished from start to end in about under a month (my binge-watching habit), that there is some good in bad. and bad in good... mostly. Can't help but respect the writers (authors... get it?) of the show. The show also has a certain saying at some point where they point out how evil is made, not born. I'll get back to these points soon but first...

So what classifies as dark, bad, evil people? Well sometimes it might be morals as it can be kind of thought how some of these people who are interpreted as evil, can see themselves doing the right thing from their end, however, that does not justify their behavior even still as they should learn proper behavior from all, should they have these evil people as their role-models/teachers. It can also be literally mentally-ill people who do not learn it from anywhere, instead just want to do it for their own literally sick, disgusting reasons... like a real psychopath. Now what these people do to earn such a title as evil, bad, dark etc is another matter of which i have already blogged about on my earlier account.. The worse of them all in the bad end of these kind of people literally kill other people and want to show it to others, then near it on the other hand there comes the pretentious hypocritical fucks who try to do the same by much more devious ways like trying others to get them kill themselves or kill in secret which are or at least might be even worse than the ones who kill in plain sight, Then again back to first category some torture others physically and cause so much pain to others these people make eternal scars or make lose limbs or anything of such, then there is the mental torturers who do not necessarily physically hurt but instead try their best to get others feel bad and cause mental pain that damages their mind or social status so bad that they might not recover or be "healed" from the "wounds" ever which might be just as bad as those who literally torture depending on the seriousness, There are people who take others happiness away by kidnapping their loved ones for ransom or some other psychotic reasons or anything to gain something themselves or hurt their "enemy" in that way, and then there are the ones who search/stalk/investigate and then denigrate with it or just to have their own disgusting fun over others misery (should they think it's funny if someone is "inferior" to them or have some "flaws" (differences compared to their "normal") and hence are making fun of them in a evil way or some fucked up shit like that) and destroy anything other rather status style or objective that might and could make the causers foes happiness go away. There are people who enslave others, and people who use others for their own pathetic advantage in a much more devious ways like making them to do something they want but getting them to think they do it for their own will. There are liars who say things that aren't true to look good themselves (and also to show as if they knew everything since they hate being wrong about anything) or to spread shit to or of their enemies or otherwise try to make others look dumb by convincing something is true and then when the ones who believed the original liar, the believers might look stupid or liars themselves. Usually bad people are so stubborn that they never truly listen to anyone else but themselves and hence really selfish, nor do they care what others want you to hear usually. In a nutshell, there are murderers, manipulators, torturers, bullies, selfish fucks etc etc list would go on. All of these things i described in this paragraph that people can and in fact do sometimes, ARE in the same category. If you have ever wanted to take away another persons happiness in anyway or use them like tools without humane rights, you are just as bad as murderers, stop fucking justifying your psychotic shit you mentally sick, selfish or just jealous/envy fucks and just take responsibility like a human instead of being a monster, or if you find yourself being a monster, get some serious help or get your shit together on your own, i don't care, just do something so that you wouldn't ruin the world for everyone.

But what about then the better side, light, good, amazing people? What can it be? Morals are in fact related to this too, one might actually do a lot of good for everyone and help others on problems or just to be happy as they think they are doing good, or even doing stuff for own personal gain which isn't bad at all as everyone should be happy themselves too and not just make others happy just as long as this personal gain does not affect others in bad way like using them for advantage for own happiness or forcing happiness through others like love or some shit like that, or like i pointed out on last paragraph, some might think they are doing the right thing and helping or doing good but in fact are doing some shitty fucking bad evil shit, and in this same darker side on the other hand, some might pretend doing something good but really do some evil shit knowingly which isn't on moral that much anymore but instead doing what they want without any code. Good people actually care for others and their happiness, as well as their owns still like all of us might (without counting some people who are dangerously self-destructive... but aren't those people seriously deep within "happy" when they cause some harm purposely to themselves if they in fact want it? Well... When you start counting literal acts of heroism when people do care about themselves but care a lot more of others too and hence might throw their own away from the way of others happiness, that is heroism instead of self-destruction. Or both self-destruction and heroism in some cases when people think of others life to be much more valuable than their own and are willing to sacrifice their own for it even if if might not have been necessary. So isn't that still some sort of happiness from kind of misery? I don't know exactly since i'm not self-destructive but sounds about right). Good people definitely do not want to hurt others. There are people who literally want to help people and act on it how they can, but there are also people who might not want to help directly and do not see see a lot of effort on it but definitely do not want to hurt in anyway either which are good too, There are people who save lives on accidents and bad situations or even by the channel of their job, and people who appreciate people who save lives but might not have done it themselves since it might be more rare to be even able to save lives on accident type situations or just do not have such job or opportunities in their lives that would save but still respect people who do save others, There are people who give some wealth and food or something like that they have to others to give out happiness and life for people in need, and there are people who don't give what they have (don't have enough to give or even do have but do not want to share everything they have worked for to people who do not work in similar ways to earn such living) but importantly definitely do not think others lives shouldn't still have just as much or more, people who give happiness, and people who search happiness but do not want to destroy it from others either. Good people want everyone to be happy including themselves, good people are honest and do not lie to gain anything nor deceive and talk shit of anyone (am i talking shit of anyone now for example? As i have said many times on many past posts, I never "judge" personally anyone nor talk shit behind their backs etc etc but in general do not appreciate evil people and hence might talk badly of them in general sometimes), good people are fair and want everyone to be equal. Good people want to please other people and listen to their needs instead of closing their ears from others. And that right there is being on the light side people. In this paragraph i have explained about many types of people people who are good in many ways, there are more but i think i got some main traits already painted.

But what about my moral right now as i'm writing this? When you there right now most likely read these words of mine that i wrote (unless someone else is reading for you or hearing it or some shit, not many other ways to read this sentence as you somehow perceive this), you might in my hope think that this sounds about right, which in fairness, should be about accurate description of good and bad people in general within humans who have some emotions, but still some might think "holy fuck is this guy writing bunch of fucking bullshit.." or at least think that in some points of mine... or not, i don't know you. Well, in a nutshell, i still think that bad people hurt and only think about themselves and their goals and happiness no matter the cost for anyone else, whereas good people help/save and think about others too but also themselves and do not want it for the cost of others goals and happiness. Think what you want but do not stand in the way of how others proceed in their lives, you know live free just as long as it does not effect badly to others and should protect others freedom as well, however this too can be fucked up and some people think they are protecting others happiness somehow but instead are taking it away. Morals are one tricky thing on human psychology. What is doing the right thing and what is doing the wrong thing? That is the question that i have tried to answer on this blog post from my end. I think of myself as sort of a person who does not cause harm, I don't bully anyone, i don't use others for my personal advantage and force them to do anything, and definitely do not want to stand in the way of others happiness or be more miserable than i am. I respect people who are better than me and have more, just as long as they do not go into the dark category of which i wrote on my paragraph already and start being messed up harmful people. I am sort of even forgiving for stuff should these people TRULY "redeem" themselves or shit they do be accidents or one-time bad stuff and these people then do not continue with their crap, though not to lie, i still do not respect the bullies of my past for example at all and do not care if they lived or died since i do not respect them for ruining my life nor still want harm to be caused to them either, i just simply don't care about them as much as like of other people because they caused me misery in purpose (not in a sense of being accidents or just somehow some random shit but in a true purpose to hurt me) and i don't know have they changed or not, and i definitely do not care how any persons life turns out in the end if some fucking piece of shit who spends it CONSTANTLY by using others like tools, hurting people or especially killing other people throughout their life without any signs of peace and change and good in them towards all people. I'm not a hero of anyone sadly, nor am i the villain hopefully, (2 rather movie/show/game style words) though on neither of these in the total end, i have no idea what my publicly shared online blog and posts on twitter or even music i have uploaded on youtube etc might do out there.. as i have pointed out, it feels like i'm being stalked somehow (maybe online, maybe even not on internet completely), you know... people following my activity more than it shows as followers or visits in these sites, people stare more than i am used to, or is it just social anxiety and me checking if people stare and they happen to look upon me at the same moment i check if they look at me for whatever reasons, like the perfect explanation of being slightly more of a odd-duck? As in standing out a bit more than usually as i have always from early childhood? Or are they truly following my life in secret like bunch of sociopaths? Are some perhaps stealing my ideas or art or whatever? Or is it some more personal vendetta as impersonating as me (identity thieves) and then being evil "as me" to give bad reputation? Or spreading some other shit and lies behind my back and hence people stare? This is how little my trust is on humans thanks to many factors, however don't get me wrong, i do not want to be like this and want to trust everyone and am not as paranoid all the time. I do have trust but i still doubt everyone as i have seen how untrustworthy some people are. I try to gather facts sometimes if i even suspect something and that is a good thing in my opinion since not all can be trusted. Fortunately, once you can especially know in person what kind of any person actually is, you might find out the truth about anyone, for example here i am in my honest self as Sunshine ArtWave and as ShadowRaz ONLY on the accounts and social sites i have shared on this and the sites linked through and in 'Back to Roots', I don't know exactly about stuff out there on the world and why do i feel like stalked, but i have wrote about this already on old blog, no use writing more because i haven't gotten any responses on my contact emails of any of these rather paranoid thoughts from some signs and others staring so no use to linger on them too much and carry on happy without worry, or at least until i do get some evidence of anything. Not easy to expect some sociopath to turn himself/herself in for some sick fucking stalking, but i was expecting more like some good person would tell me if he/she has seen another person following my activity secretly, and then possibly making fun of me or disrespecting and/or sharing it somewhere outside of my official sites. Also as reminder people, if you hear someone constantly talking shit of other people from your town or anywhere in the world, the ones who talk shit (or epspecially laugh at) constantly of others are the evil fucked up ones, not the ones of who the shit is about, usually...

Some time ago, i was personally active for a month or so (can't remember exactly how long, i'm not counting time) at DSF Ninja forums when trying on learning dubstep production and found a place of people kind of doing same (not that the forum helped though on my progress... not saying a bad forum, but am saying it did not effect my progress on dubstep productions what-so-ever either, maybe not active enough, maybe not good enough member (team-spirit or some shit, merely opened up there more or some shit i dunno), don't know), and in there, i wrote some of my free thoughts about bullies or some shit like that, much like in my old artist names blog and this particular post, sort of like breaking my inner walls and finally getting my feelings out there. In there though as it was unusual writing though, i still got response to 1 of my posts that got really stuck in my head which did not drown in some other stuff. Someone said to me how i might see things "black and white", and there is a good reason why this response got stuck into my head. Not only is it a common phrase to describe people who actually see bad and good in a totally different categories and as different kinds of people, but also can be heard in, oh, so many shows and movies to describe basically the same thing. Now, just to clarify, this common black and white, yin and yang, dark and light sayings definitely do not (at least in my end) or should not from anyones end mean some racist bull-crap to separate darker skinned and lighter skinned people, nor should it separate men and women in any separate categories to describe good and bad. By the way. I'm not even sure into what post of mine i got this answer for as i seriously do not remember exactly and i don't want to go back and start browsing endlessly my old crap in there, and was it a genuine answer for something since from there i learned that at least 1 person liked to quote out of context and do not fully trust them for that (also as positive side so that i don't disrespect members of the place but instead point the problem towards me, one person pointed out how i unload my anger to them pointlessly which was true since they had not done anything bad for me in the end), but it sure as hell got me thinking about my way of seeing bullies (my personal enemies in a matter of speaking) for example, you know, to see from another perspective how i apparently see things "black and white" more deeply. Never have i done (except with few insults how they are soulles, empty useless fucks on my blog posts, have not insulted bullies in person or past in such way ever) nor want to do any harm to anyone even though i have hate against people who hurt other people but still don't respect them at all so it truly got me thinking about it more. Now it is starting to get back to the point where i said: "I'll get back to these points soon but first..." You know.. As in meaning... any person who seems to be morally evil that only kill, bully/torture/hurt, use 4 advantage, steal etc etc might have some good aim morally from their point or who knows, even anyones point of view in their doings... i guess perhaps..? or at least have the part in them which is acceptable as good side personality trait.. hell even love... even though the person seems to be evil fully with their personality and actions. Like on the 'Once upon a Time' show (SPOILERS AHEAD FOLKS, don't say i didn't warn ya) the rather "main" character (Regina/Evil Queen) seems to have loved and have lost and hence then carry long vendetta and do horrible things in the name of it but then turn back good with more love. However, who knows, some might be born to kill (yes, very aware of the emblem many people use on BF1 for example), hurt or use others for advantage and be total psychopaths from the start and not be made such way in wrong beliefs however they justify what to do to other people or some shit like that, who knows couldn't these kinds of people too be totally harmless and good though are damaged in a way. aren't we in control of our actions even if our minds might not work alike? And then some people who seem to be bloody saints, as in literally good throughout and angels in every way to everyone, never harm or do any bad stuff and think of bigger good for everyone, have some dark thoughts or just secrets or illegal stuff they have done. For example the "enemy" of Evil Queen on the show 'Once Upon a Time', Snow White, seems to be good allthrough and help everyone but has some dark deeds too like constantly stealing (as wanted for murder she didn't do though), exchanging bad "destiny" thing from their child to another and even willingly killing a bad person, so a bit of over-shooting (as in choosing to murder, fucking awful, death sentence by one person, judge jury and executioner as the common movie/show saying) on the point how some good people might have bad deeds, but i hope you catch my drift as i compared to a FANTASY tv-show how there can still be bad deeds in "name of good" so to speak, as they were sort of forced choices in the show too... kind of... I mean there are people who extort/blackmail/force other people to do some evil stuff too.

So this is basically what i wanted to say about this matter. It is already long enough, could be even longer but main points from my end are there already, feel free, or in fact, do to think about this more, or even response after thinking and reading this text properly fully through from your end at the comments of this blog post should you want to. I would be happy to get inside scoop from others against my thoughts or some arguments or whatever. That is exactly how we people learn about and from each other, by sharing our true thoughts. Peace out